This week has definitely been a very trying one. I’ve never experienced such ranges in emotion from utter tired and damn near despair to an extreme anger to giddy, child-like happiness. I am a firm believer in the doctrine of “everything happens for a reason”, and this could not have been more summed up than in the concert experience that I shared today.
Singing with the Singing Men of Ohio is one of the most enjoyable and life-changing experiences that is available to the men on the Ohio University campus, and I totally recommend it if you can ever get the experience as an audience member or as a participant. This concert was at the forefront of my concentration because I had become a prominent member of the group now, having been in at least a year, been on the board, been in the pop a Capella group Section 8 and the most important thing: I’m not a freshman anymore. I have to look like I know what I’m doing, even when I don’t know exactly. It also means that you cannot get distracted from the ultimate goals. Without delving too deep into any drama (trust me, you don’t want to read that right now. I will post it once everything is finished), I had been thoroughly upset a couple of days before this concert, and even during this very entry, I am still quaking with anger. But something happened. The sign that I had begun to grow up appeared, and lo and behold, I kept my emotions off the playing field and focused on the task at hand, which was to make beautiful and powerful music with these men that I am proud to call my brothers and friends.
It’s funny to figure out when you’ve officially made a change in your life and why you now act a certain way. This week may prove to be one of those, because there were many times I could have stayed angry and not tried my best or cried and pouted and left everyone else to carry the load. But that would be the immature thing to do, and as totally immature as it is to say that I’ve grown up, I’m very proud of the way I have slowly handled the situation and focused on what I am born to do: make music.